There are people who want me to shut up. They send me their silent messages - DO NOT mention that baby. DON'T YOU DARE bring that baby to dinner. I am NOT answering emails about THAT BABY. I will silence you with my contempt, my judgement, my anger, my fear, my ignorance.
It makes me feel like I'm crazy. But I won't shut up. I won't contribute to the stigma and the ignorance. I can't. I have to say it out loud. For my daughter and for my son. I'm not doing it to hurt anyone. I'm doing it because I HAVE to.
It's unbelievable the shit I have to deal with because my baby died. Something happened to me that wasn't my fault, and I feel like I continue to be punished for it.
Please, babyloss families, keep saying it out loud. Try not to be afraid. Claim your child. You are not alone.