Having a stillborn child has been a very confusing experience for me, among other emotions. After he was born, I went into such terrible shock, I didn’t know what to think. I didn’t know if I was his mama. I didn’t know if I was supposed to think of him as my child. I didn’t know what I was supposed to do about it.
At that time, I didn’t know the importance of grieving. I didn’t know that I had to learn how to grieve. And I didn’t know that you can’t stop it. I will never accept that my baby died, but I will accept the grief.